The joys of May

I’ve always just loved the month of May for a couple of different reasons but mainly because it really brings about the anticipation of the fun summer months. I know summer is technically still about a full month away for everyone else but living so far down south where we are we are definitely already experiencing summer like temperatures outside and they will only continue to rise! But aside from the weather of summer I love the end of school and the beginning of a fun summer break when all the kids are out of school and fun family vacations and there is nothing at all like the smell of sunscreen and tanning oil, I just love it! We are having a fun summer family vacation for a week in Biscane Beach and I couldn’t be more excited to spend a week at the beach laying out, enjoying the sun, yummy meals with my family, and most of all fun times making memories together.

 

 

But until summer really arrives we are living in the moment and enjoying the month and all it has brought us and we have had so much to be thankful for and to really praise God for! First of all about three weeks ago Jake received the news that he would be getting his transfered from downtown Houston area (which is about an hour commute to and from work sometimes longer, especially during traffic) to the west side of Houston which is the area we live in so where he is working now is only a 20 minute commute to and from work which he is loving so much more. He loves the shop he got trasnferred to and the his manager and team he is now working with. And another fabulous blessing that came our way last week was that Jake got his promotion/raise after working so hard for it and I am so so proud of him for performing at the very top of his team at work. He works so hard to provide such a wonderful life for him and I and I am so so thankful that God gave me him and gave him this awesome job that he is completely thriving at!  It just really feels like things are finally falling into place with his job and life in general, it is such a relief and blessing to have him get his work car so I can finally use the car for errands and all my doctor appointments and everything else going on. God just has such a way of blessing us and this time it feels like a ton of bricks of pressure and relief have been lifted off and I am so thankful!

 

 

Also right now we are helping Jake’s brother and sister in law while they are waiting on their rent house to be finished so they have been staying with us since Easter weekend and we have kindly introduced them to our current tv obsession of Dexter. We are currently on the beginning of season 7 and none of us can believe how things have unfolded. But Jake & I are deciding right now what to watch next since we will be finished watching Dexter very soon at the rate we watch since its on Netflix and all of our main cable shows are all wrapping this week as well. Currently I’m so sad to even think about Dr. Cristina Yang leaving Grey’s Anatomy because that is really my true obsession. I’m still really trying to figure out how they are going to play it all out with Yang leaving, Owen staying or leaving, Mer/Der leaving or staying, and what the heck season 11 is going to be like since I know most of the original will be back. Oh my how I’m such a tv addict no matter the cable package I have haha we downgraded this year to the basic cable package along with HBO and Netflix so I guess I’ll always find some tv show to be obsessed with! Let me know in the comments any suggestions that are great binge watching tv shows. I’m considering Scandal, True Detective, and we are also continuing Orange Is The New Black Season 2 which premieres June 6th I think.

 

 

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Where I Am

Thankfully since my last post my head currently looks MUCH DIFFERENT, although I am very glad to be back at home the changes and adjustments are SO NOT EASY! I got released from the hospital last Thursday night after being there for seven straight days and was absolutely the most exhausted I have ever been in my life so it felt amazing to be home and sleep for about fourteen hours the day after coming home. I didn’t get the best or most encouraging news from my neurologist and I am still trying to process through all of that and the major changes it is going to have on my life. Basically my doctor decided to change up my anti-epileptic medications some to see if this may help. I am staying on my same dosage of Keppra (1500 twice daily) & Depakote (500 twice daily). I have always been on Keppra so that isn’t an adjustment for my body, but the Depakote is a new drug so I’m going through alot of the side effects both physical and emotional. I’m trying my hardest not to worry too much about the medicine not working but I can’t tell you how hard that is. Usually the medications I have tried either just don’t control my seizures, make them worse, or my body reacts badly with the side effects from the medicine which causes the doctor to stop the medicine. So I am crossing my fingers in hopes that my body will cooperate with the new medicine or we can find one out there that will work out.

Along with trying new medicine I also cannot drive for at least six months, depending on how my seizure activity is. But I also had to quit my job of keeping my sweet 9 month old nephew, Parker because of safety reasons with my seizures being so sudden and unpredictable as far as when and where they will happen. My life of being an independent almost 26 year old is changing more and more everyday it feels like and definitely spiraling out of my own control, which is something I am having the most difficulty with. I have the most supportive family out there I think and they have been here for us every step of the way for whatever we need and for that I could honestly never repay them.

I know nothing about these next several months is going to be easy with finding the right medicine to control my seizure, and getting my body adjusted to the new medicines. But it is also so much harder than I remember it being last time especially emotionally. It honestly feels like I can NEVER turn my brain off, something is always going crazy thinking, worrying, or feeling something that is getting the best of me so that I can never even quiet my mind! I am very much trying to find someone to talk to (a.k.a psychiatrist) about all these emotions going crazy inside me whether it is sad, angry, being annoyed, depressed, being in a bad mood and not knowing why, and generally just not feeling like myself. This is one of those times where I don’t know what to do, just REALLY do not know what to do, how to decipher what are my feelings and what are feelings from the medicine since this new medicine can alter your behavior, emotions, and personality and generally just make you a different person and sometimes causing depression. I don’t know how to tell the difference or how to process all that is going on!

I know if you do read this you may find it strange that I am writing all these personal emotional thoughts and feelings down and posting to a blog on the internet for anyone and everyone to look at potentially. But for one I’m not a person who cares if you read my personal feelings even if I have no idea who you are, I’m just not a private person. And two writing out my thoughts and feelings and what all I have been going through has always been helpful for me, it does give some sense of relief so you may find alot of this over the next several months so I will apologize in advance. For now I think I am done, if you did read this until the end you are a trooper!!

Until next time 🙂

Welcome March!!

While I’m still trying to figure out how to get into a good blogging routine, I decided I am going to do this photoaday for March for something creative and fun to do everyday! I know ALOT of people that have been doing this for the last couple months of the new year and I’m always looking and reading about through instagram, twitter, facebook, and blogs so I thought it would be fun to try out and see how I like doing it for the month of March! I’m going to do ALOT of blog catch-up this weekend, so there are going to be quite a few posts. But I just wanted to do a fast little quick post about a fun way I’m planning to start out March, it’s going to be a fun, but very busy month for us, we are definitely looking forward to it though! Happy March everyone!! 🙂